It was a hot day as the wind blew through the car window blowing the little girl's long blonde hair around her face. Her little fingers pushed the buttons on the car radio. She was so excited to hear the music that was playing. Her little brother, shy and quiet sat beside her as she pushed the buttons to hear more music. The lady from the agency just smiled and said for her to stop because we are almost at o
I wish I could tell you the little girl grew up and all was perfect, but that didn't happen. Yes, there were good times for the child, but when her loss of innocence began and then continued, those memories would become very dim for her and everything would not be all right. For the little girl's dream of a happy new home with a mommy and daddy who would love and protect her was just the start of many years of mixed emotions, heartbreak, confusion, bitterness, and betrayal.
Do you have these types of memories? Has someone hurt you or betrayed your trust? Maybe it was a cousin, a brother, an uncle, a baby-sitter, a date rape, or a church member. Did your father or mother hurt you, or hurt someone you loved? These are memories that no one should have, nor should these types of hurts have ever been done to you or me. I want you to know that. The question is..can you live a happy life after abuse? The answer is “YES”.
When I was small I was taken to church where I learned about God and Jesus. At the age of seven I ask God to come into my heart. He did. And, He became my best friend. In the years to come, in the darkness of night when my father came to me in my room, I would pretend to be asleep, not understanding why he would do these things to me. It was then I would pray to Jesus.
Most abuse is kept secret for many reasons; to protect those we love, afraid no one would believe us, or maybe we were/are too ashamed to talk about it. Most often there is no one to talk with about such abuse. But, God was there for me and He can be there for you...if you will allow Him into your heart. You will have questions. Why did this happen? What did I ever do for it to have occurred? And, “if you are God, why didn't you protect me?” Even though I had given my heart to Jesus I still had these feelings. Every kind of emotion, hate, fear, resentment, and confusion that is possible can be in our hearts and minds. But, I want you to know that our God is such a loving God that He didn't make us robots, but people with minds who can make our own choices in life. No matter if they are wrong or right. There is nothing fair or right about the abuse any of us have suffered, but we must go on in life.
God gave you and me life for a reason and a purpose. Only in trusting that God does have a plan helps us survive sexual, or any type of abuse. Although not easy, I found freedom from the nightmare of my loss of innocence through Jesus Christ. You can too, by laying your hurts at the feet of Jesus, and leaving them there. You can walk away with hope and His promise of regaining your innocence through your faith in Jesus Christ. You, too, can look toward a wonderful life and a future with joy and peace.
Please know that mine is a story of just one abused person, whose desire is to tell others that they also can find freedom from an abused past. There can be healing and freedom from the nightmares, and there truly is hope for a happy future. Taking the steps to search for this freedom was not an easy one, but it was necessary in order that I find peace in my soul. God bless you in your journey for a new future with the peace and freedom that comes through Jesus Christ, our Lord.
2 Corinthians: Chapter 1 vs 3 & 4
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
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In Christ Love,
Barbara Nunn
Joe and Barbara have been married for 33 years and have 3 children and 3 grandchildren. You can reach her by using the Contact Us page of this website.
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